over it



blastforme has it right. Lay off the speed stuff. Take time to think about you moves--agonize over them even!

Take a week off.Then come back to it when that itch scratches. You've learned a lot from all those positions.With a fresh mind you will be able to apply it.
Like blastforme said stop playing blitz and bullet. A beginner should play live chess or timed move chess and study openings, strategy and tactics. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. Looking at your games you are doing the same thing over and over again and expecting to improve.