Also, whenever I lose I get angry. Once when I lost an online game, I threw a plastic cup against the wall and overturned a wooden chair. My mom came in and asked "what was that noise?" and I shouted "Leave me alone!"
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Finally, the worst games are the ones where I'm winning, and then make a very stupid blunder and give the game away. I have done this twice, and those are the games that haunt me and I think about them at night as I fall asleep, and have had several nightmares about chess. I had one last night, where there were giant pawns in my neighbors garage. In the spaces between the pawns were cars, but no one could get in or out.
I have become a better player since I've been playing a lot this year, but I'm wondering if it's worth the stress.
i couldnt stop laughing, i still can't