An explanation & apology from magpie

 On Sunday evening last week, I posted a disturbing forum here about my desire to hurt myself or others. Please allow me to explain what had caused this, don’t judge.

              I hadn’t really told anyone but my parents are abusive. I won’t go into detail here for obvious reasons, but I had been suffering up until this point, and building up stress and anger etc. Also, my moods can affect my personality here a lot, that is why I can sometimes be formal, then sometimes freaky, and sometimes annoying…

              Earlier that day, I got into an argument with my mum about something. It affected my mood the whole day, until I shouted at my sister for something. For just that, my dad did horrible things to me which I won’t describe, physically and emotionally. I was already messaging my therapist, but he was not replying. I messaged him again and again, as I got more and more stressed, sad, and angry. He did not reply. Little things happened which made me more stressed, then I started thinking sad things about my life, all the bad things. It made me really sad, and I thought that it wasn’t worth living.

              Since you all are the people I speak most to, I made that forum. It could have been exaggerated, but it was showing my exact emotions at the time, and that’s what I wanted to do. I needed to let it out, but I let it out in the wrong way.

              I hope you forgive me for that, and I hope I can sort myself out as soon as possible... Thanks for reading  <3

Omg. I hope your fine ♥️

Not a problem....I in fact have been dwelling on the fact of how hurt someone might of received whether physical or emotional can affect there outlook.

I'm so sorry for that bro

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didnt think that u r in such a bad environment

but still,happy that u're back

Okay 👍🏽

And welcome back

Hope you're doing ok bro. You are a special part of OTF and we all wish you the best and are here for you.

Sorry to hear that bro, hope you find help or whatever that puts you in a better environment.

Omg I'm so sorry, hope u will be fine..

i hope u r ok bro

Sad

well thanks for being honest, and we all have stressors and um, problems. blaming others for your actions is called scapegoating, not that l think you are doing it. just remember a few key points, one, you have no control over how other treat you, but you do control what you do and feel about it. two you control you, how you choose to feel at any given time is your choice. three try mentally heaving a few hooves, if you do not have any real ones handy to chuck. four, sometimes l write what is bothering me on the hoof and chuck off a cliff. left the valley or sea below deal with it.

Hope things get better. We are happy to have you

*huggies*

Sorry to hear that bro, I hope everything goes well

... u know I have only been ur friend for a few weeks and I kind of figured something was up, but I had not imagined it was this bad... idk what to say i...i...i...i am soooo srry to hear that... hope things go well, we as the OTF will always be there to help!!

we cant do anything physically,but we r always emotionally available

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