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I'd like to engage Kay but I expect that isn't possible.

Whether Kay's shell is voluntary or involuntary it's clearly been there some considerable time and I can't see it changing.

And besides the attacks that Kay clearly needs to issue couldn't be done without the hiding.

Kay is a coward in that Kay hides itself while attacking those that reveal who they are.

I can't imagine either of those things changing.
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And yet I believe in people. I believe we naturally love.

And my mother said that whatever hate you issue to the world goes through you and she's right.

It's unpleasant to hate. It's in no one's interest. Kay's nor anyone else's.
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I know I'm not going to carry on as I have been over the last couple of days. I'm not here to fixate on a coward. But what to do?
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What are my options?

A block Kay.
B don't block Kay and engage.
C don't block Kay and disengage.
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A is a non starter. I love people and want to have an open forum.

And yet Kay reveals precisely nothing. Rather just attacks those that do.

I wonder if this being the case whether or not it might make sense to block Kay.

I'd really prefer to leave Kay the option of redemption but then what's the point if having someone here that's not going to be involved in the conversation but only attacks those that are?
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I suppose I can't block my son but then perhaps actually I should be refusing a dialogue with him or anyone else that's attacking.
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I'm thoroughly confused.
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What do I want?

I don't want to continue like this. I refuse to spend my life dealing with the attacks of another.

As I've said it's clear that despite my wishes Kay isn't going to change. So this endless strategising is pointless.
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So b is out. I either block Kay or don't block Kay and disengage. Kay isn't engaged any way in truth. There's no interaction.
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Okay I've decided.

I'll stay true to the premise of the thread.

I'll allow everyone here but I'm no longer willing to engage the coward that calls itself Kaynight.

Unless and until I see that there is a willingness on the behalf of it to engage me.

I refuse to spend my time being upset by a spineless coward.

Perhaps that's what life is showing me.

Sometimes in life you have to ignore people.

Well from this post forward until Kay decides it's willing to engage I'm ignoring it.
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I'll start again. Good morning.
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How are you?
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I think the thing with being yourself is it's about finding what you want over time.

Sometimes it takes awhile but if you're mindful and live in the moment you finally will learn what you want. As you see what you need I suppose.
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I'm going to talk to the people that are willing to talk to me.
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I watch my mind objectively. I just watch the thoughts you know. I can do that on this here thread. Watch objectively what happens.

I suppose naturally there are some subjects you think about that you dwell on and some you don't and I guess that's the same with the voices you hear online.

Mexi was right. You hear these voices and you can interact or not. It's your decision.

I think these threads can make you defensive and suspicious because of the likes of the bitter and twisted coward that is Kaynight but most people online as offline mean well and care.

So thanks Mexi. I see you were right.
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It's New Year's Eve right? Happy New Year!
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Again though I'm not happy making rules.

I suppose then it's a matter of blocking Kay or accepting and engaging.

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I'm not going to block right now but I don't know if I can take much more.
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But then my patience does need improved. And I do really want to see how an entirely open thread looks.

Right decision made.

I'm going to allow everyone here and engage with people as I like for the next year.

After that I'll decide if I want another and if I want to exclude the bullies. The vituperative cowards.
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I feel better now. Love and acceptance! Peace.