I used to be like that. And I still am. Yet I’m still improving.
Chess Spirit of a Colt

is this about your horse or chess? Both?
It's really about coachability. Specifically, it suggests that certain characteristics promote learning and improvement: discipline, motivation, and focus. There are more qualities that foster growth in chess, but I felt those three are what many can identify with.
Oh, and I don't own horses. This was from a homeschooling fieldtrip
How trainable or coachable are you?
A) Disciplined, focused, and motivated
B) Other
C) Unruly Chess Colt
For all of the "unruly chess Colts"- checkout the poor injured foal who was stuck with his mother. When he attempted to break through a fence to escape, he hurt his back leg.
Then, he was put with his mother and kept in the barn each night so that his leg would heal. At night, I could hear his restless complaints and during the day, I could see the behaviours that lead to his injury and confinement.
Still bucking, he risked further harm to his leg and delayed his own improvement. Wild and eager to be free, he wanted to roam, but he simply wasn't ready.
This is how I feel as a beginner in chess. I want to break through the fence, but I need to be solid in opening principles and foundational skills. Attempting to forgoe the necessary discipline and training has only weakened me as a chess player and caused rating loss.
So here I am one year later resembling a restless Colt and feeling completely ridiculous. How about you?