I hate myself soooo much...

I convinced myself that I am an idiot playong Chess. I believe it is the truth. I am convinced Chess is all about intelligence, not training, not skill, it is all intelligence and it shows how intelligent you are. I disregard my straight A grades in school because that is entirely work ethic for me. I can't be convinced that Chess doesnt show your intelligence and isnt all about intelligence. Being an idiot is my insecurity yet it's true for me and nothing can convince me otherwise. Everyone who calls me intelligent is either very oblivious or lying to me just to make me feel better about myself. I think I really know what they're on about. I really shouldnt post this online but whatever. I am not going any further on, this is all I want to talk about writing this post. I can already predict the replies. Please don't try to lie to me like others did. Don't waste your time talking to me trying to improve my self image. I'll still not be convinced so do something better rather than tp reply to this post. I can also predict others, "Are you writing this just so we can tell you you're very smart?" No, that is not my goal, I have no goal in writing this, I just wanted to write this because I wanted to. I absolutely have no reason to write this other than just because.

Huh.

Skill Issue