I hate this.

So I’ve said in the past that people don’t really- like- like- uh… know me? I don’t necessarily know how to say that but I will explain it.

So basically I don’t know why but my brain just gives the GO signal whenever it’s something embarrassing or weird to cry. I feel anger but I cry. I don’t want to cry but I CRY. AGAINST MY WILL! basically

I’ve never hated a word more than these- sensitive, crybaby and childish People really think I’m weird. Including my family. I just cry for everything so I’m SUPER SENSITIVE OR A CRYBABY OR CHILDISH. The point is, people really don’t know me. No one really knows how- er- smart I am or.. just know me as a whole. Everyone thinks I’m just a dumb stupid little baby.

So in my last to last PTM (parent teacher meeting) I think my class teacher — or my father, whatEVER, told me to.. I don’t know, sit with a person who can.. PREVENT ME FROM CRYING? RRRGGGH. So basically my teacher told me to go out of the class while talking with my father. I assume this was to talk about… you know. ^^^ My place was changed the school’s working day or a school day basically next to (call her X) x’s place. I mentioned maybe — MAYBE IS THE KEYWORD HERE, IM JUST ASSUMING — in the last paragraph why. So same thing today. (Refer to another girl as Y) Y’s place got changed next to mine. You probably know why, considering the last paragraphs. As I said. And today — Y said something that really infuriates me.

holding out their hand (like in a shaking- hand way) and saying “fRieNdS?”

This has happened a million times to me before. With many other people.

Alsooo, not to mention I went to counselling one time in my school, etc etc. There are far too many details on this topic that I can mention-

GIYS THERES A SIREN OUTSIDE MY WINDOW IM ACTUALLY SCARED.

All things I am assuming btw.

And ONE THING I WANTED TO MENTION-

the over-glazing. People really say- “omg so smart” or whatever. I really hate this.

Iku

… what?

#3 I really want to say that now

“ I know you”?

I don't really know what to tell you I have a friend which gets upset easily and it can be annoying but I can feel him.

#7 I think he means I know you on otf

#7 ye

I mean, what im saying is that I don’t want to cry but I do cry.
Also not to mention whenever I hear the word “cry” I instantly get reminded of myself. And people proooobably think of me too

This happened to me before as well. As a human we don't cry when we are upset, we cry when we feel a flood of emotion which is when we laugh enough we cry. All this says to me is that because anger is such a powerful emotion and you don't have an outlet it is causing you to become overwhelmed with emotion and that causes you to cry.

#12 I only said anger as an example. Even if I don’t have anger

Guess what?

I CRY.

I gave anger as an example too. Unless you are constantly crying then I have no idea. If not then my reason may be correct

#14 I wouldn’t say — or describe it as.. constantly crying? I mean I don’t cry everyday, lemme get that straight lol.

Oh! Oh! So basically every class has 2 levels: class monitor and assistant class monitor. So it lasts for 3 months-- Like class monitor x and assistant class monitor y have those roles for 3 months then they change So basically i was made the assistant class monitor. Girls are usually the normal class monitor. I think It was to make me feel more "important"? Great kingdoms I do NOT need that no thanK YOU.