Looking to find myself a wife?

I realize it must sound unusual, however it's feasible given the circumstances.

With women I find myself giving into my physical impulses rather than evaluating based on personality; personality is important for chemistry, without it a relationship won't last long. And hence I do what any reasonable human being would do, approach and communicate to garner some sort of idea of their personality. The problem with these real life interactions is that a majority are vapid, lacking in intelligence and would require an inordinate amount of time to weed through in order to find a small handful of intelligent women. You don't simply read a profile, you talk for days or weeks with each individual person to understand who they are, however I'll become a middle aged man by the time I find a match.

And as I said, our biological nature as organisms to desire sex is problematic. There are always a few girls I reckon I could get action with, and badly want action with, yet fully understand they'd make a terrible mother or partner and so I fight these instincts constantly. I doubt I'll give in but perhaps it's egotistical of me to suggest I'll never slip up.

Why not just find a really strong female chess player on this site, cohabitate with them and be done with it? I'm sure there's a handful from third world countries or poor living conditions that would be tempted by the financial security I offer or the warmth of a roof over their head.

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If the OP believes in equality, does he believe that he also would be a horrible father and partner by behaving that way? Or are females alone to be judged harshly for getting 'action?'

I'm fully aware of the double standard where sexually active women are seen in a negative light whereas men aren't. Though lately, my stance is shifting since I see enough instances where men confess their supposed feelings of love to sleep with women. I think poorly of women that fall for it, even if women are generally good natured and kinder when compared to men, so I admit it's ironic that I don't dislike the actual perpetrators.

One specific example of relationships that kind of disgust me is where the girl is exclusively buying the boyfriend's food, cigarettes, gas. My attitude about it is traditional in that boyfriends should be buying everything, so in a sense I'm archaic minded because society is recently pushing the concept of female financial equality(although I find it agenda driven, I don't have an issue with it in principle). But when that happens and the boyfriend displays no fiscal responsibility and can't even be bothered to save up money to buy their groceries, that's when I start to view the girlfriend negatively for their complacency. Young adult women in relationships should be thinking about whether their partner will be a good father, or whether he'll have enough resources to support an unexpected pregnancy. And that he won't just shirk responsibility.

I'm rambling off topic here, yet I'm not sure I addressed your question. I find it hard to believe I'd be a horrible father if I'm bringing a child into existence that's actually wanted.

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