Tom

Welcome .

In this forum you are invited to say what you want when you want. Relax and be your natural self.

I'll do the same .

I don't want to give any boundaries. What I would like is for this to be a place where people can meet and relax and have a chat. About anything they like.

I'd like people to not feel they have to try when they are posting here but rather do to what comes naturally.

Just be you you know?

Anyway whatever you would like to say you are welcome to do it here.

I'd like to have an outlet here and maybe to meet some lovely people too and everyone is welcome to use this thread in the same way.

Thank you.

I have this experience. I feel that I'm just watching myself. Just watching me going through the motions. I feel detached now in terms of how I experience life .

Like watching a movie you know? Sometimes the movie is bad and sometimes good.

I guess by that I mean enjoyable.

I was having a conversation about enjoyment yesterday. Talking about whether or not money brings you happiness .

I don't think it does. I think money brings you pleasure but that's not quite the same thing.

My wife likes watching sad TV shows. That's not my idea of pleasure.

I wondered how long it would be before I picked up some criticism.

I don't mind though. I love people. I generally find that if given long enough people generally see I mean well. Although not everyone enjoys me and those that do are driven crazy at times.

Bless you Sir. Well you are welcome just like everyone else to come here and just let it all out.

I don't like to use labels. Sometimes people say to me you have OCD. Like a stamp on my forehead.

But you know I'm just me. I'm a person. I have feelings and needs.

The good thing with these forums is that you don't have to be here if you don't want to and I like in creating my own forum that I feel free to express myself.

I want anyone and everyone to know though they are absolutely welcome here to post whatever they want as many times as they want.

Sure I understand the thread might get closed down but it's not for me to decide what's appropriate and not appropriate and I won't.

From now on, every time this website crashes I'm holding you personally responsible ;)

Ha ha.

But I've given up my search. I really have. I just felt the need for an outlet.

Also I just love people and I thought maybe some other people might like to shoot the breeze from time to time .

Oh my search was to find out what we are by the way .

I've come to understand though that there are more questions than answers and that peace comes through forgetting about the questions.

Just relaxing.

So now I live like a dog you know? In the moment.

I like this just being. I used to try really hard. I couldn't ever enjoy company because I'd be working away .

That's what we are told . But this self help book. See this therapist. Those that love us know better. They say be yourself and if someone can't accept you they aren't right for you.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E-P2qL3qkzk

If I'm honest I'm not sure where this thread will go. Maybe I'll go back to what we are, maybe I'll talk about my life, maybe I'll just talk about what I notice.

But I think my search came to an end and this is a new chapter and I'd like to see what happens .

Bunny..banging your own drum again?

I'd like to chat a little bit about how my search ended . For myself I guess really . Taking stock .

I reviewed a lot of articles. Science. Read some Buddhism . Tao .

What I realised was that everything in the universe has a natural explanation. But there is so much of it we can't possibly hope to know of it all .
So all science and spiritual ideas could bring me ultimately was the knowledge that everything but everything is a natural thing .

Apart from that I reviewed my consciousness . I didn't meditate , perhaps , but I was mindful and observed.

What this brought me finally was the knowledge that the peace I was seeking wasn't actually going to come from finding the truth .

The peace was actually there all along when I wasn't busy worrying about what the answer is .

At that point I let go .

Let it go , let it go , I'm one with the moon and stars .

A lot of people say I'm gay . It doesn't bother me at all .

A colleague said you are so far in the closet you are in Narnia.

Fabulous !

Hi buni and Hi Fh . Welcome .

Anyway so now I've finished my quest . But you know I love people and I love chatting .

I didn't like posting that much on other people's forums because I was always anxious I would dominate .

If there is anyone out there that would like somewhere to chat but worries about derailing the thread then this is the thread for you .

I accept absolutely everyone and you are welcome to post as many times as you like.

There is no topic other than just relax and be who you naturally are and feel free to express yourself if you would like to .