tomtrytostay

I'll cite an example of a brief incident, that happened to me about, 7 weeks ago. - Though it takes longer, to contextually relate it.

As a result of my then 95 year old mother, {whom I both lived and 'helped out' with.. 'passing' last Sept.}.. I've been living by myself, in a {small} house, which soon, looks-to-be 'sold' to another party.

Anyway, due to the vicisitude$ of Life - It became necessary to no longer keep up, with my 'Web' provider payments. - Until, 2 of my older brothers intervened - When it became apparent to me, that my socially/ Life long, essentially disengaged life-style - In conjunction, with my mother, no longer being around for her degraded quantity, of 'wakeful company' .. along with my then {turning-out-to-be} short-lived, Internet disconnect - Was having a negative effect, on my mental health!

So, one early evening - Sensing, that I was starting to 'climb-the-walls' in a mental health sense - I went out for a long walk.. interspersed, with sitting, on an ocean/'beach view' public bench, by myself.

Lo-and-behold - Whether I was walking, or sitting on the 'bench' - It shortly became apparent to me - That there must be, a localized area wide, {if more likely, 'world-wide'}; 'Spirit' of suspicion and Fear, residing, in more-than a few people; Just because, 'couples' and 'families' out, enjoying the weather.. did Not appreciate, having a person-by-himself.. {Me} - Sitting on a public bench, near 'dusk'..{which I sensed.. in retrospect}, was directly in front of their 3 'block' away, beachfront home .. Or even necessarily walking in close proximity, to some family's home, on a narrow, otherwise 'public' street.. that was 'outside'.. presumably enjoying, the near end-of-day 'outdoors.'

In any event, I learned 4 things! ..#1. A 'climbing-the-walls' feeling, {not that common for me} - Can lead, even an 'indoor person' like myself, Outdoors, {which might explain, the lack of other people's recognition}

-#2. If you're a 'Web' junkie, as your main form, of interactive activities - Going 'Cold Turkey'..{even if, a result of $$ considerations} - Is a Shock to ones own psyche! ..

-#3. People, and even 'blood relation' brothers.. Can be Very nice & considerate - In 'going-the-extra-mile' for someone else!

And, #4. If that causing and sensing Fear in others, {just because I was a temporarily/in passing stranger} - Was merely, the 'universe observing itself' {a favorite 'Tom' phrase} - Then, we're 'ALL ready, for the 'Looney asylum'! .. {"a house-divided-against itself, cannot stand"}.. As in, even lower-level apprehension - Let alone, worse forms of anti-social behavior! ..fini

Thanks, All ..'Gents'! ..{you too 'Don_frye'!}   [ ;

Kay felt some aversions raising but was unsure how to react. Just guessing.

Lift up your kilt and bend over.

Nikki, your cut and paste is an age marker. You are either really young or really old.

  But you can't say 'we all have feelings' and then say ' I'm full of love', not in so many words, but you get the drift.

Really? I'm impressed (or duped).

I would say Tom is exactly like the guy who's rinsing the pool for leaves while hearing the phone, thinking what the heck.