I've come to the conclusion...
That nothing matters at all. Except for ONE thing — you.
I've been trying hard, working hard for 2k bullet but I slowly started to realize that it didn't matter from the beginning. I just couldn't do it and had to work more. I still have time, and I know I can do it not right now maybe but some day later.
The thing is, I absolutely suck at bullet. Only thing I had was luck, but now that's gone. That's where the blitz grind begins. @SandyDanger was right I hate to admit it *wink* but some things shouldn't be done, some things should be done first and some things well, shouldn't be done until something else happens.
I'm leaning more towards the social community from now, because I have to slow down otherwise I'll tilt really bad and I'm mentally not stable with my bullet rating is going towards 1700.
I shouldn't be dreaming about 2k bullet when I can't even move a piece one step forward under one second. My reflexes suck, and I'm very tired for the rest of week, month and year. It's time to slow down things.
Life has many ups and downs and I'm expericing all of these in a roller coaster so far. School is good, but tiring. After that I can barely sit and play whatever I want with 30 pages of homework waiting to be done. I just can't do it, and I know for a fact my teachers are gonna fight me-
Anyway, back to the topic. I met many good, some bad but overal many good people. People who supported me, stayed netural towards me and didn't like me. And to all, thanks for that. No mattter what you feel towards me, you shaped my way to be here writing this right now. It's insane to think that if I didn't click Caleb's auto-join link accidentally I wouldn't be known at all, wouldn't be mature and wouldn't be a CVC legend. I thought the username was cringe nowadays look how dumb I was before- jkjk, and then didn't join it.
I gotta admit it I wasn't smart back then, but now I am. I achieved many great things here and met many great people here, and I recieved many support. Every moment shaped my way into writing this post right now. It's a fact, and I think this is the best way it could go. Not a huge Cc social legend nor a rando, just in the middle.
Everything is perfect. I just hope I joined Cc social earlier though, especially CVC. But I could've gotten a bad reputation and that wouldn't be a great start since I wasn't that mature back then.
I'm still more than fine with this timeline.
And to finish this, I have to thank everyone.
Firstly, thanks to the the club Chess.com vs. ChessKid for everything. The staff, the community, the memories...
It's the best thing that ever happened to me, which was an accident. xD
And others...
@carlsen @ChessBeteigeuze @NepoFan2795 @sailsword @ToastOven @Forsaken @TheAuthorOfChickens @B00M3R4NG-N3BUL4 @TheCosmic_Horizon @Agentnoggin @Deflecting @Deflection @Qoiuoiuoiuoiu @F1-24 @NoahDeAlwis @FreeFriendlyDove @mjtcan @DayLight @Caleb341 @Kavarin @Champion @SandyDanger @SpaceChess and many more.
Thanks for everything you did for me, whether it was just crossing paths or spending a whole year together; I enjoyed it.
And for all of the Cc community that wasn't involved in this list, just so y'all know. We probably didn't have much interactions together but still, I have to say; thank you. Even though you weren't in the list, you're defintely a good person I know that for a fact. I just couldn't get you involved because it would be too long and it would be unfair for the others I spent a lot of time together.
But, still.
Chess.com Community, ilysm. <3
Now, I will update this blog sometimes whenever I feel like. I just had the feeling to make this blog and couldn't do otherwise. As I said, thanks for everything. Cc Community ilysm. <3
