I’m sorry if I sound like a spoiled brat, but… it’s draining me.
So, whenever there is a school break, my mum makes me go on trips (usually overseas). Even though it sounds great to you, it’s exhausting to me. Like I’m an introvert and I can’t really relax unless I’m at home. However, my mum is the polar opposite of me — extroverted and always plans the vacations in which none of them I enjoy.
Furthermore, the trips aren’t short — they take up the whole school break. Like whenever I actually get to enjoy home, it’s either me having to go to bed right away or only having a few hours to enjoy my life. And she wonders why I spend so much time on the iPad during vacations… And when I tried to talk to my mum about this, she either ignores me or says that “children are supposed to obey their parents unconditionally” and I have no say in the trips’ planning.
Also, the nature of these trips is genuinely sadistic towards me. A lot of those trips are tours, so I’m surrounded by a dozen or more of strangers that constantly give me attention without knowing that I’m actually an introvert and prefers being left alone. And when I tried to tell my mum to tell them to ignore my presence, she refuses and says that since I’m a kid, everyone is supposed to care about me and that I am supposed to want attention. I try to ignore the strangers, but they express too much intimacy and affection towards me that it’s making me uncomfortable and genuinely made me want to cuss at them. When I tried to explain that the constant attention and intimacy makes me uncomfortable, she shuts me up and calls me “naughty” and “antisocial”, when in fact I am introverted and just wanted to be left alone. Furthermore, she told me that everybody on the tour knows I’m autistic and uneducated, making me even more insecure.
So, yeah. I guess I should accept my fate.