can anyone gift me membership for chess.com

I always wanted a membership since it looks so sick, its okay to refuse, but itll highly be appreciated!

You're not a good investment. All you play is speed chess.

I actually play rapid games ; ) but i never said ur forced to my guy!

I know you were clear and that is appreciated. It still doesn't change the fact that moving fast and learning don't go well together

You played a G10 lost in 13 moves and still had 8:16 left. That's speed chess

i always rush idk why tbh, whats ur tip on improving

The answer is obvious. Play slower time controls and use your time. You have a choice. Play speed chess and enjoy it but don't expect to improve. Or limit your speed chess to a few games a day. Get serious about studying and play slower time controls. Preferably Daily chess or at the bare minimum G45. I know. Not what you want to hear. But you didn't learn to read by speed reading. Chess is the same way.

How to calculate in chess I'm mostly playing by instinct

Just calculate.