Somebodysson wrote:
That is all going to change. That's for sure. I am not going anywhere with chess, except better and better, more and more wins, more and more understanding. These psychological barriers are peanuts compared to the barriers that better and better opponents will throw my way. I will become ruthless at the chessboard, and I will have no mercy for my opponents. And I will be a nice guy off the board. I will learn to distinguish between nice guy off the board, and ruthless killer on the board. Although I doubt my chess style will be like Tal's, I have him as a model of a super nice guy who everyone liked, and who everyone feared at the chessboard. That's what I want to become. When Yaroslavl wrote the other day "siege warfare. blockade, attack. And execute. Execute. I looked at that word over and over. I am executing pieces, not people. That is one of my struggles. Understanding that I Execute pieces, not people.
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What all chess players want to be is a strong player. A strong chess player is a "professional gunslinger". All the rest are just tourists.
I understood this. And what you suggets will do the msot to imporve Sombiddyson's game the mots in the quaickest manner. It has been a long time since I went through what Sombodysson is going through (in fact I cannot remeber it, it has been so long). But I would like to ask Somboddyson. Can you say why you are finding it difficult to look for something to attack, or conversley what your opponent moves are attacking? What are you thinking about when you go to select a non-tactical move? I find it hard to imagine what else one would look at, but your notes cetainly show you are taking many oher consideration into account, ut your language is often not in moods but in feelings, so I cannot tell what yiu are seeing. What are these considerations that make you struggle?
hehe, the million dollar question Jagalvak. But, since that stuff isn't chess, I'll refrain from answering. Let's focus on the chess, and by targetting the chess, and targetting the importance of targetting in chess, I'll get better, and the o'ther considerations will fade into the background.
For example, (I"m not very good at keeping secrets, I see...I just said I wouldn't tell you, but now I am)...in the game I won last week, when I saw that my opponent blundered and I got the piece advantage, I became very very uncomfortable. I thought "oh, I'm going to give him a bad evening. He's going to be upset. I shouldn't beat him". Then, since I had Jaglavak and Yaroslavl on each of my shoulders, I decided that I couldn't let such considerations interfere with the won game. I owed it to Yaroslavl and Jaglavak to win this won game. I felt I coudn't face them losing this game with a whole piece advantage.
So I had to find some way to deal with my feelings of, shall we say guilt, for lack of a better word, at the prospect of winning the game.
So I had to find something. I owed it to Yaroslavl and Jaglavak. So I remembered the week before at the chess club, during the tournament game, this guy was talking loud to his opponent after their game, at the tournament table. (You're not supposed to talk about the game at the tournament tables. You're supposed to go to the side tables to discuss the game in order to not interfere with the tournament games). So I tolerated his noise for a minute, then I looked over to him and said "come on. We're playing here. Shhh". He became quiet.
I also noticed, that day and a week earlier, that this particular person played very fast, and the week before, I had noticed at one point his opponent had used up forty minutes and he had used 2 minutes.
So I remembered all of this stuff, and I thought "He's playing slow this game. He's taking his time. But I'm going to punish him for last week and the week before. This guy doesn't deseerve to win this game. I'm going to go ahead and win it. He was noisy last week. He was too fast two weeks earlier. I'm going to go ahead and beat him".
And I proceeded to calculate hard in a position that was certainly not familiar to me, but that I was determined to not mess up. And I won more and more material without keeping track of the material balance. At one point, I moved, and then looked down, just collecting my breathing and my nervousness, and then I heard a sound, and I looked up, and he had laid his king on its side. I was surprised. It took me a moment to realize he was resigning. I looked at the board, not comprehending his resignation, and realized for the first time that I was ahead something like three minor pieces. Then I understood his resignation.
Such are the things that go through my head.
Yesterday, I felt I had outplayed my opponent in the opening. It was pretty clear to me that my opponent was reacting to my moves, not the opposite.
The feeling of being in control was unfamiliar to me. Frankly, it was uncomfortable. I felt that it wasn't NICE to force my opponent into such an uncomfortable situation. On my opponent's 3. Bd3, using the bishop to protect the e pawn, which would only get kicked by my Nf6, I knew my opponent was already out of book. And I felt, shall we say, guilty. That I was making my opponent uncomfortable, and that's not nice.
Frankly, I am more familiar with losing, than with winning. It is more familiar, and more comfortable. I am more comfortable congratulating my opponent when they win, than I am with them congratulating me when I win.
When I started playing chess Summer of 2012, the person I played with hated losing, and became in a bad mood when they lost. When I lost I didn't become in a bad mood, and if I was unahppy about losing I wouldn't show it. It was a source of pride to me. I hated the feeling of having to deal with my friend's bad mood after I had won. I was more comfortable with me being the loser, and then have a good time with my friend.
That is all going to change. That's for sure. I am not going anywhere with chess, except better and better, more and more wins, more and more understanding. These psychological barriers are peanuts compared to the barriers that better and better opponents will throw my way. I will become ruthless at the chessboard, and I will have no mercy for my opponents. And I will be a nice guy off the board. I will learn to distinguish between nice guy off the board, and ruthless killer on the board. Although I doubt my chess style will be like Tal's, I have him as a model of a super nice guy who everyone liked, and who everyone feared at the chessboard. That's what I want to become. When Yaroslavl wrote the other day "siege warfare. blockade, attack. And execute. Execute. I looked at that word over and over. I am executing pieces, not people. That is one of my struggles. Understanding that I Execute pieces, not people.
There. I hope that helps Jaglavak. I really hadn't intended to say any of this on here, but you asked, and my policy is that if someone asks, unless I have a strong reason to not answer, I will answer truthfully. If I have a strong reason to not answer, I will truthfully say that I don't want to answer.