Aggression

@MANUELTEJADA

Hate to break it to you, I don't understand spanish. 

You should try watch Hikaru on stream. His reaction to blunders and losses has been a role model for me how to understand and approach with laugh what happens on a board.

control your feelings or they will control you... rise above them with some deep, slow breathing & try to treat other people with the same respect that you would like to be shown.

if you have major unresolved issues in your life (no source of income or bad grades, for example) work hard on those first so you head in the right direction.

most of the bad stuff that seems so important to you right now likely won't matter at all in 10 years if you simply keep working on some self-improvement.

make sure that you are getting at least 8 hours of sleep every night & disable chat until you can handle your emotions appropriately if nothing else works.

I might consider that. I don't watch chess streams but maybe the highlights

its so hard ;-;

Good good advice. 

I really need to get over myself.

In fact, I have considered myself a failure in life for the past six years. 

Flopped high school, landed in a bang average uni doing a Bsc physics. Tried to get into better unis for my masters but I failed to do so I landed in another bang average uni. 

It is so hard...

No one ever said it could be this hard...

Oh take me back to the start...

if i am a 2400 blitz and rage a lot well idk how to help, its tough to improve but work hard!

life can be hard:  just work through it & remember to treat yourself & others with the respect we all deserve as fellow human beings.

Hahaha. I can imagine that. Fair play on your rating though! Should give yourself a lot more credit than you do. 

yeah

Ok, fine. It probably is. I am trying to resolve it. It is just taking a rather long time.

Thanks sir. I do apologise for being a massive jerk earlier. Online chess can be massively toxic if not dealt with the properly. Sadly, I had to learn that the hard way. The super hard way. 

I am still mad aggressive still....

Progress is so damn slow!

I feel your pain. I also rage when I lose, mostly in bullet when I lose by less than a second, but there is no reason to rage when you lose in unrated games. If I lose because of a mouseslip or something, then I will be a little frustrated, but it has no effect on your life or rating. If I keep losing in unrated games repeatedly, then I won't rage but I'll get down on myself and stop believing in myself. Improvement can be very slow at tines, but the longest I have ever been stuck at around one rating is a month about.

Now I have down right lost it! 

Chess isn't worth being driven to suicidal thought and this forum isn't the best place to find help. Your time would be better spent talking to a trained person via a helpline which operates in your area. Things will seem much better afterwards.

True. You are right. I just took a break and feel a lot better. 

Every game you lose represents an opportunity for you to recognize and eliminate at least one defect from your chess-play. If you could learn one lesson and correct one persistent error with each lost game, then after a year or two your playing strength would be approaching Titled ranks.