How to get admins to block my account?

I am already addicted, no question about it. Addicted to 3 min games where I usually have 10 seconds when the opponent humiliates me with having 3 minutes on his clock. It is so humiliating to play like this and seeing the opponents sending me sleeping memes. I think though I am generally better than the opponents, who just play fast. Sometimes they play so dumb I beat them with 6 seconds + the increment and they still have their 2 minutes or so. Most of the time I miss an obvious move while time pressured, and yet again a beginner has a fresh trophy under their belt.
Therefore, chess just sucks for me. Is there a way to get an admin to block my account? I've tried different things, including getting angry at the opponents and typing whatever insult came to my mind (including a message for admins to block me forever), but it just got blocked by the chat, but whatever I do, I don't get blocked.
It is a known fact that chess has ruined my life, humiliated me forever, not to mention ruining my self-esteem, thinking this intellectual game would be something I can get at least decent at. Quite the contrary, I just suck, stuck at the embarrassing 1150 level for years, only seeing people who I easily beat 6 months ago get to 1800 - like they were trying to humiliate me by this fact.
Block me if you can, otherwise you will have to see posts like this more and more often. In other words, if you want to humiliate me, don't block me.

why would anyone be embarrassed at being at 1150 90 percent of players dont ever get above 1000

why would anyone be embarrassed at being at 1150 90 percent of players dont ever get above 1000

I am already addicted, no question about it. Addicted to 3 min games where I usually have 10 seconds when the opponent humiliates me with having 3 minutes on his clock. It is so humiliating to play like this and seeing the opponents sending me sleeping memes. I think though I am generally better than the opponents, who just play fast. Sometimes they play so dumb I beat them with 6 seconds + the increment and they still have their 2 minutes or so. Most of the time I miss an obvious move while time pressured, and yet again a beginner has a fresh trophy under their belt.
Therefore, chess just sucks for me. Is there a way to get an admin to block my account? I've tried different things, including getting angry at the opponents and typing whatever insult came to my mind (including a message for admins to block me forever), but it just got blocked by the chat, but whatever I do, I don't get blocked.
It is a known fact that chess has ruined my life, humiliated me forever, not to mention ruining my self-esteem, thinking this intellectual game would be something I can get at least decent at. Quite the contrary, I just suck, stuck at the embarrassing 1150 level for years, only seeing people who I easily beat 6 months ago get to 1800 - like they were trying to humiliate me by this fact.
Block me if you can, otherwise you will have to see posts like this more and more often. In other words, if you want to humiliate me, don't block me.

If you want to close your account, you can do so from your account settings. There is no need to make an effort to get the moderators to ban you. But, before you do, know that I have been at 1200 level for around a year at this point. I have seen players shoot far beyond my rating in much less time; I suppose they are people who can understand the game better and quicker, but it does not mean you are inferior to them at the game of chess. Perhaps they have training/coaching you did not get, for example. Likely what is happening is that you have become too comfortable with your first instinct, which has grown wrong because you got lucky too much due to your opponents blundering under time pressure. Try playing more Rapid games to gain some additional insight into the game and find new tactics and patterns before going back to Blitz. Additionally, if you have the money, you could try a few sessions with a coach to gain more skill.

I have wanted to quit chess many times, took long breaks, but always come back. I have called the game stupid, myself stupid etc. Perhaps you are right and I should actually try a coach, just to see whether my bad play is fossilized forever, or a coach can point out what I am doing wrong and let's see if I can grow by at least 200 more points. I am too old to make it big in chess, but perhaps knowing I am not stuck at 1200 forever can help me somehow psychologically.

You could throw in a few longer online games (eg 15|10) in the mix, or form a chess study/play group in a local chess club. Though bad play is hard to reverse, it is possible, but expect this to take some time to overcome - could be months.

Here's some truth: atheists, on average, have higher IQs than religious people.

I don't know, do fish believe in God? Do fish live?

How about trees?

How about asking me something that makes sense.

Plenty of religious people believe humans are fundamentally immortal... either you go to heaven forever or hell forever, but it's still forever. Which means (other than saying "I believe") this life is meaningless. Just an infinitesimally small blip in comparison to eternity. For example whether poor people you've never met live or die shouldn't concern you much since they'll live forever later.

Meanwhile if you're an atheist, you can actually care about such things. Life is finite, so life is precious.

Reality is actually "backwards" like this once you use your brain, and not only in this way, in lots of ways. Atheism lets you care about things, let's you live morally while religion is the opposite. Religion only makes sense if you were born in the bronze age, or like I'm saying, if you have a below average IQ...

... but that's one of those facts that are not nice to mention. I wouldn't want the PC police on me would I?

There are extremely logical explanations... natural explanations, for why things exist. This includes why any specific religion exists. Christianity borrowed from other religions that were around at the time. Christianity changed what it believed over and over through the ages. The books of the bible were edited, included, or thrown out... all to better fit human's imagining of what the religion should be... and of course this continues to this day. There are countless denominations, each with various beliefs. Society creates religions, always.

Meanwhile, on the other side, the supernatural explanations make the least sense. It's not just that they're bad, they're really bad in that they make the most extreme assumptions.

It's all very silly... it makes me sad so many humans are so stupid. Honestly this is how I feel... and I suspect most people say "I believe in God" not because they actually believe. In fact they probably agree with me! It's just that they lack the education to differentiate between saying "I don't believe in God" and "I'm a bad person." To them it's the same, so they don't feel like they have a choice.

And for other reasons... I understand why religion is popular. Heuristics are very efficient. That's what religion is, IMO. They're useful rules that humans have passed down through the ages... the mythology is an artifact of how humans are natural story tellers, and can be ignored, but most of the actual rules (like don't kill) are useful in that they're heuristics...

... so it's not so bad to believe. It just means you're making an efficient decision. You want to spend the least amount of time thinking about it, and have the greatest practical effect on your life. A very reasonable choice. And it's especially reasonable to be religious if your social relationships depend on it. So I get it... your friends and family make it hard to be reasonable and say religion is nonsense.

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Anyway, that's enough ranting for today.

For what it's worth, I think of death the same way I think of 1000 BC... in other words it wasn't so bad in 1000 BC right? For you or me? We didn't exist, and we didn't care. It will be the same for us in the year 3000. We wont exist, but it's not a "deep black hole" it's as peaceful as it was for us before we were born.

As for your points.

1) That's a non-epistemology, so I don't know what to say. It amounts to "I believe because it's convenient for me personally"

2) The problem of infinite regression, sure. This is a reasonable point to make. There are multiple logical arguments against it... I can think of 3 off the top of my head, I guess I'll put them in follow up post.

3) The Christmas tradition? Really?

Ok kid, I guess you should google that... spoiler, according to the Bible, Jesus wasn't born in December. The shepherds were in the fields and all that. The winter solstice has an entirely different reason and history that predates Christianity.