If playing chess makes you miserable, then I also don't know why you continue playing chess.
I do not know why I even play chess.
People play football because they like it. Same with chess. If there are no advantages and you don't like it stop now.

Wrong thread, Tony🤓

Surely its the application of deductive logic, that is submitting your ideas to the process of falsification to ascertain their validity or otherwise?

I'm so depressed, all I do is exist.

I'm so depressed, all I do is exist.
you are a depression

chess is good to get you to think, and be patient, maybe you feel if you loose you are no good , just means you have more to learn dont take it so sereously , just have fun play a game by sticking your king out in the middle and see how long you can hang on have some fun
I do not know why I even continue playing chess? Why do you lile or play chess? It just makes me feel miserable.