losing games to my own bad play

Womp

Jk that’s sad 😭

I don’t know what to do with myself anymore

because my brain has been so busy stressing about my life

The only way I could do do that was if you wanted me too I could just go ahead with that if I need it to get here by then and then

And he didn't notice the knight either?

Nope

i looked at the game -- point was in about four moves he was doing me in so why go on -- and waste the guys time

monday night games where are trash -- trying to come up a new opening thats works past move 10 -- still can't seem to find one or at least tweak my mine to stay ahead of those pawns that seem always to get in the way -- 30 games since supper -- no advancement yet ---- hummm frustration starting to kick in time i guess to let it go and watch tv -- well maybe aafter i get to 40 games tonight

The position was completely equal.

there is a good possibility he has CTE

YHANKS FOR THE MEDICAL COMMENT !!!!!moving on -- tuesday morning tired more of the same opening trying to tweak it still -- but after move 6/7 i always lose it mostly my queen gets taken -- then well then its over as far as i can see -- hopefully i can find a new opening this morning to try --see what happens after move 10 that's the magic number if i can get past move 10 i may have a chance to make it to move 20 and that would be a great accomplishment for me hear we go

TUESDAY NIGHT-better play with the new opening for me -- couple of wins without a loss -- but thats happened before so have to wait and see gone back to 3 min games from 5 min games seem to get better flow going in 3 min than 5 min -- but i won't abended the 5 min games just yet -- see you later after supper

tuesday late couple more wins so some improvement i hope but still not playing like i know what iam doing always my next move is just reacting to what others do- just waiting for a blunder or mistake but i keep using this opening till maybe something will break my terrible middle play by morning maybe i get to 150 only can hope

well can't sleep tries a couple of games -- that was mistake --- lost all of them -- now sliding back down to the bottom again iam afraid ----

well better this morning than last nighti -- and i finally got over 150 for a awhile -- so counting my blessing and see how it goes this morning -- hoping to get a little higher at least

it didn't last long -- back under 150 again-- sometimes i just don't get it why i can win three games in a row and then lose three games in row -- why such complete opposite in fortunes when the players are supposed to be the same or very close --you would think i would win 3 then lose two maybe ?? not the same number or even worse sometimes its 2 wins and 3 losses i just so confused as to how iam ever going to get ahead or at least get out of the basement 100-150 when this happens day in day out such frustration !!!!!! couple more games then meds will kick in then afternoon nap

I understand its frustrating but youre in control and by applying this simple method your rating will rise.

1. Every time your opponent makes a move: Check what he is now attacking. Pieces or pawns, whatever. React to this.

2. Before you make your move!! Check if the piece or pawn you want to move can be taken by something!

Remember to check everytime AFTER your opponents move and BEFORE your move. Do not move before its done. If you do this, you will improve.

THANK -YOU for the advice its makes alot of sense -- now if i could muster the discipline to stick to that plan you might be well right in assuming i would move up ---i will try -- but old dog new trick thing -- comes in to play here -- but i will try to give it a shot on your urging

We all hang pieces but just make a habit out of these two steps on every move and it will happen alot less. Wish you success.

trying 2/1 min games not sure what the 1 stand for but i like the speed of 2 min -- not really doing all that well but hovering around the 200 mark so for me that is good seems to be one win one lose i have to do more puzzles to get my eye trained to see those hidden moves they all seem to get my queen on at move 7 or 8 one more game for tonight then off to tv land till my meds kick in