I feel like this is a huge waste of time to a degree, because I will never improve, much beyond were I'm at. Should a guy play just, because you enjoy it? I feel like if I can't master it, why bother?
Not sure that's how people work even if your old improvement isn't just "get better " it is a lot more than that but if you don't enjoy it you probably shouldn't do chess as a hobby
I love the game. I just don't like that I can't improve, despite studying the game.
If you love the game, carry on playing. What matters is that you enjoy it. I feel the same way sometimes, but just remember, chess isn't the end of the world. It's just a game. Saying you can't improve won't help. It might not seem like it now, but eventually your practice will pay off.
Unless you're a super GM you are no good.