I can understand your distress. I know I am a good player, but online chess is a different kind of chess so it takes time to get used to. Once I get used to seeing the 2d board I am sure I will be able to get my rating where I know it should be.
''''Discard your alibi
What's your alibi for losing? You must have one; all chess players have some standard excuse. Seems even the greatest of masters needs an alibi, so you're in distinguished company. One of our leading american players-- let's call him Smith--- always wins a high place in the USA tournament. Smith enters with the hope of winning but he never does. When he fails he points out he was in poor physical shape, he'd been working too hard; he'd had little rest and training before the long grind got under way.
A stranger hearing his tale of woe for the first time might inquire, ''Well, why didn't you go to the country for a few days? Why didn't you rest? Why didn't you do some training?'' But such questions would be naive, the alibi is more important than the fact, indeed, the alibi creates the fact.
By invoking his alibi, Smith shields himself from the consequenses of his anticipated failure. He also neglects any constructive steps to overcome that anticipated failure, The alibi is protective yet also destructive.
In your own case, your alibi prevents you from improving your game. It prevents you from finding out why you lose at chess''
Luckily I will provide you with the real reason for why you lose at chess: you're not russian like I am.
The book is ''why you lose at chess'' by Fred Reinfeld, a wonderful read, for any fellow russians that are interested. It deals with the psychology of playing chess.''
When you start blabbering about how you deserve a higher rating all you're doing is making light of everyone elses accomplishment. Nobody goes ''ah, he is actually a strong tournament player''.
You're not fooling anybody. you are WEAK. Throw away your alibi or continue being weak, it's up to you. I repeat, nobody on this site except perhaps for your friends would agree with you on your playing strength.
Feels good to be able to copypaste this post of mine.
I can understand your distress. I know I am a good player, but online chess is a different kind of chess so it takes time to get used to. Once I get used to seeing the 2d board I am sure I will be able to get my rating where I know it should be.