I'm thinking of doing something very dumb but it will solve all of my problems

I'm not mistaken :3

Brains have filters. It stops them from just doing random things. And screwing everything up. It literally stops you from just going up to every fire alarm at a school and just triggering it just for the hell of it. And taking all the glass panes and breaking them. It stops one from going to every raked up leaf pile and scattering them across the streets. It stops one from breaking every tv, screen, chair, and dining ware they see. Its very hard to go against your will to do something it doesn’t want.

I can just turn that off.

I know I’m aware of the ability to be able to do so.

I really do hope that the op is ok.

I’m viscerally scared of thunder and lightning. Like I’d break down in the middle of the night if there’s thunder.p and flashes. I wont sleep for that entire night

Speaking of which I should check the weather. It was cloudier today and it was just recently raining.

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I really appreciate the things that you've all said, including the nutjobs

If any of this nonsense helped you, you were fine to begin with.

Being fine. Not as interesting as 'I'm gonna kill myself! "

But still okay.

(o-o)

Yes, you seem fine. Now back to the uranium mines, you little rascal!

How about I go back to my friends list and add you instead?

Friend, I believe that will work out!

Indeed

your a teenager, things arent supposed to workout , i understand how you feeling, it must be hard for you to find a reason to keep on going. however, the tuth is, dont take life to seriously, no one gets out alive anyway, so live your life! dont cut it short before it even starts, if ever need anyone to talk to, im here. 

Fon me eye. Ail o groove

well said mimic