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tomtrytostay

I'm going to write only what I observe as I observe my flow of consciousness . I'm interested to know where that journey ends .

tomtrytostay
I'm not going to be chatting about my own views any more . I found when I did I got into the habit of talking through my personal problems and I found that to be an unhealthy habit . I started analysing out loud .
tomtrytostay
So rather I'll read what folk write and just post here what my mind/soul shows me
tomtrytostay
Okay I'll start now .

What am I ?
I am a human being . I have thoughts , feelings and memories . I have experiences .
tomtrytostay

I'll try to bring at least one new thing to the thread each day .

tomtrytostay
I guess I could give an opinion on any views I hear but I'm not going to get into expressing my opinions as such . Rather than say this is what I think , I'll say this is what I notice .
tomtrytostay
Yeah I remember when I got obsessed was when I'd come here and write so many posts on my own . This time I'll just comment on the posts I read or express my Omfoc .
Chicken_Monster

Are you on the sauce again, Tom?

mdinnerspace

On the sauce and off the meds. A recipe for madness. Ignore every post is a contradiction, sit back and have a jolly ole time.

tomtrytostay
You know I don't like this making rules thing . Yeah I'm interested in Omfoc but I don't make rules . I'm going to be myself and say what I want when I want
Pulpofeira

What's Omfoc? Sounds like an association, or maybe some type of internet slang.

tomtrytostay
Oh it's an acronym
tomtrytostay
It stands for observing my flow of consciousness . I'd like to talk a little bit about the process . I think I just needed a little time out to assess things but I missed being here and more importantly I want to see what's at the top of the ladder
Pulpofeira

Ah, observing the flow? Just make sure all of it gets inside! ;)

tomtrytostay
That's making me laugh
tomtrytostay
So . I'll take the time to run through things . I was broke . I still am to a degree . I knew it . So I figured well watch how I am thinking and feeling . Eventually I'll see what's wrong and that'll fix things . I realised later I needed to map things .
Pulpofeira

You are nothing but a sort of living machine with the ability of eating, loving and fighting. Enjoy it while it lasts, the fact your existence is not trascendent doesn't make it less worthy, maybe the opposite.

tomtrytostay
So eventually I saw that only choice mattered after all if something is wrong with your mind how can you fix it unless you have a choice about it ?

Then I saw that the mind/brain works in a particular pattern when it comes to conceived problems .

We get the option choose to solve, choose not to solve , don't do anything or decide unable to solve .

I experimented and found that when I chose not to solve things became clearer and I felt more relaxed
tomtrytostay
Wow involvement already , great . I'm going to finding explaining where I'm up to though but I'll respond to every post directed at me
tomtrytostay
So I went for years , over a decade , every time I conceived a problem I chose not to solve . I stayed mindful and things became clearer and clearer . I became more and more functional .

A few things happened on my journey . I saw that essentially what we are is love . I also eventually saw that choice doesn't exist . Once I realised it made sense not to solve when presented with a choice the choice didn't exist any longer . I just knew it was the right thing to do . All the other choices I'd perceived were gone and I was left being my natural self all the time