relax and be yourself
Like I'm aware of at least two but maybe there's more.
So there is the layer that's about the fundamental nature of reality.
I can see for example that free will is an illusion.
Then there's the more superficial layer that's about how I feel. What makes me happy.
I wonder if there's an even more superficial layer.
I think so. I used to live at that level actually.
It's about pure hedonism. No thought about the needs of myself or others.
A really unhealthy and unhappy way to live.
At that level people aren't good to be around. Aren't good for themselves. I've been there.
oo there is a difference between calling out and lashing out.
I realized, Tom, chess.com is your journal. Everyone that comments are but mere voices in your head. Some good, some bad, some joke, some encourage, some 'lash' out, some call out, some have pity, some have your back. In the end, these are just voices for your journal. ..diary. online diary.
This is why it's all about you. You don't care about chess, i'm wondering why you picked chess.com. of all the millions of sites, why did you choose chess.com? exnos mentioned deja vu...Tom finally gave an explanation as to why he starts new threads. after hundreds, he finally gave one. bravo Tom. I think....
.. It sounds like, you're once again, on the mood 'Upswing' 'Tom' .. Congrats, I guess - Whilst remembering, {borrowing} - "Death, is Not the Greatest, loss in Life - The Greatest loss, in Life.. Is to give up most, or all Hope - While the 'soul' dies inside"! .. N-E-V-E-R, S-U-R-R-E-N-D-E-R !!

I do care about playing chess actually. Not for the pleasure though I like it but for the fact it's good for the brain.
As for the journal idea.
I don't know. I love conversation but I do think perhaps it's helpful to express how you think.
I've said all through that others are free to do that here as much as they like.
I think a few people have opened up here and I've loved reading and feeling close to them. Love to know people.
I find that hope springs eternal in the sense we love and care though my hopes of ever finding a friendship have all but died
It's easier that way. I would talk to single people once and encourage them to believe they would meet someone.
But you know once you accept something isn't going to happen life is easier.
Let's talk about you. You're creative. Let's hear about how you feel. What's important to you. What you love about your life and what you wish you could change.
Buddy you come hear saying this thread is about you Tom.
Well be the change. I'm open to hearing as much as anyone would like to share.
If you'd been around you would see people have been.
You are mouthing Nikprit's words about another time.