relax and be yourself


It's one thing to see clearly that life has no true meaning, that all that's real is nature and the self doesn't exist. It's quite another to come to terms with living your life that way.
I couldn't try to incorporate my new understanding into my everyday life even if I wanted to.

Though I accept that the I is an illusion and there is no true meaning I still have the experience of being alive .
Interestingly though I wouldn't particularly say I experience an I . I'd say beauty yes and a feeling my life is worthwhile yes but a self not particularly.

The the overall objective truth is life is just natural causality it's also true that within nature there is life and one of the experiences that life has is of experiencing beauty. Also a feeling that this beauty is something worth living for.
I still hold though this experience to be a delusion but it interests me that I don't experience the delusion of self anymore .

When I say I experience the delusion my life is worthwhile perhaps that's not quite right .
It might be truer to say I notice thoughts feelings and behaviour.
I notice beauty and I notice satisfaction at beauty .
All of these things are true.
Does this mean I am the consciousness?
Does this mean I am the thoughts feelings and behaviours.
No. It's all just nature doing its thing .

I believe that everyone of us are just nature doing its thing. Evolving .

But then like I say there is no true meaning . Anyway nature will do what it's does. It has no choice . And we will do what we do because we are a part of nature .
So how will it all end . You'll die.
We're born. We live . We die. It's that simple. That's all there is . Meaningless .
Life isn't fair . It's not. But that's how it is.

It's the thought that suggests something is wrong.
There's nothing wrong . There is just a reality. Nature evolving .
