It's just you.
white castles first...and loses?

Really? Cool! My Dad taught me that opening so we always play the same thing at the beginning of all our games.

All's well Ethan. You're not alone.
If i castle i tend to lose more often than not, whether i'm playing white or black.
Come to think of it, even if i don't castle i tend to lose more often than not :)
So i'm no help in answering your question. Waste of your time in you reading this really... sorry :)
Is it just me, or does it seem that if White castles first, he/she usually loses? I know Black has a tendency to castle first because he/she is usually playing defensively.