Greetings my Friend:
Please embrace Hope and have faith you will move forward. I found your post very precise and well composed. You are in no doubt an intelligent individual. If I may advise you to review GM Eric Rosen's You tube Commentary on how to create a study in LICHESS and save it in a personal library. I believe this may be ideal for all training needs in addition to creating and developing a solid repertoire.
I wish you fortitude and perseverance and hope you will overcome this battle. Stay well my friend.
Mental illness and chess...
I'm struggling with mental illness at a point where I have 5 meds/day to take.
One of them reduce my ability to concentrate, to speak fluently (even if my thoughts can be crystal clear), losing words (not knowing what word to use to describe something even if the idea is clear), memory loss etc.
It is just side effects of one med I can get rid off within 2-3 years if I'm lucky.
Regarding these side effects and non-existent social life. I decided last mid-july to get back at chess and going in a club even if it's just to see some people.
I just want to improve my memory and concentration when decreasing a med, that's all for me. I know my limits when it comes to play for real.
I'll stop there. It pains me and sickens me to think about it. It brings back the image of what I once was and what I could have done (not talking about chess).
I'm just looking a precise function of a chess software for training so I'll surely talk about openings in another post.
Thanks for reading me.