Life is sometimes hard on us. Just imagine discovering you have a mental illness, called Bipolar (Manic Depression) and Hear Voices that is around me that no one else can hear.
It can be Hard trying to play chess when you are manic for some people. But I honestly play better chess and have a better understanding off logical chess and stategy.
Were you ever admitted to a mental hospital? What do the voices tell you?
Life is an imperfect chess table, you can be a pawn but you cant be more and neither promote within, and the searching, work and invention are going on to this day that I'm talking. But chess sky and madness go together or be a sheep(liver).
The master of surrealism strikes again
If you want surrealism, I can provide you with a wonderful example:
https://www.chess.com/forum/view/general/how-chess-saved-me-from-ducks
i will tell you all a funny story about my first time at a chess club ., one of the club directors introduced me to a few people than i was on my own. so i go in one of the rooms these old guys in their 80,s were going over some games. one of them says to me young man you don,t want to be a chess player you,ll go crazy. we are all crazy we all take psyche medication all day and look at that guy in the corner over there talking to himself. he don,t believe me lets all show him our pills harry. they all show me these bottles of pills. then he says also look at bobby fischer he played here his pictures are on the wall. hes nuts he drove himself crazy pla.ying chess! with that i walked away but i did continue to play chess but not become a chess player per se just a guy who maintained his sanity but drops in occassionally to play a few games of the craziest chess you ever saw or will see. but i swear i am ......... i think i am sane anyway true story 1987 good chessing to you all
I personally dont think serious tournament chess is good for mental illness. Especially anxiety disorders, OCD, and insomnia. It makes you worry about moves, quick decision making, and these are the worst things you can do in those cases. Also, looking at screens too long isnt good for general sleep health. Occasionally for fun, sure, but not to become an obbsession.
Who?
Thats makes NEGATIVE sense, like below 0 sense.
No, it makes no sense trying to master something that you know youll never master, when you could have mastered something that you can easily master.
Its not like you know ahead if time obviously. If you know you wont end up mastering something, theres no point in trying. You only know after you try
Google what I told you to. Read a little. Think about it for a day or so. Then post.
A DAY lol. I get the gist. Just saying you usually dont know what you can master before hand
Yeah, chess has like 10 to the 1000000 possible games!
Why aren't you on Risperidone .5mg and Methylphenidate 55mg? That's what I take and I am able to live a pretty normal life. If you are not seeing a doctor you should because there are medications now that can help you. Good Luck!
I'm on 5 Kilograms of Abilify and 10 Megagrams of of Escitalophram
chessbot3000 wrote: "to willingly spend a life studying a game that one has no chance of entirely mastering is not exactly sane, is it?"
Wow, that is really a pretty profound insight. In my case, I feel a deep rooted, gnawing anxiety that I somehow must reach a level that I know, on an intellectual basis, is simply never going to happen. And ironically, quitting chess would only exacerbate it!... Yup, that's pretty crazy.