serious advice - i need help with learning real openings

i want to try and go back to e4 openings but idk where to start, i recently had went to 2 otb tournaments with one being today and one last week which i won. today i got 4th but eh i am not so proud of my opening play. i have been using my vant krujis e3 opening as i liked to avoid theory and non complicated positions but now i really want to study and try to improve my skill as an actual chess player rather than being scared when doing e4

Just get opening books bruh

Theory’s 

i dont have money for opening books, any online resources i can use?

Yt vids

which kind and what channels/videos? i want to learn how to play against the sicillian and just e4 openings in general as white

That’s why you gotta search bruh

well i want to find some advice as idk where to look, i am not a expert in theory

I think there is a channel called Louis chess club 

What kind of e4 positions are you looking for? I learned my prep from experience and various sources. 1.e4 has hundreds of serious variations, I might be able to help more if you could specify what you're looking for. 

oh yeah, they make good videos where should i start with them?

chessable.com is good for learning/memorizing 

well not sure, i am really just stuck with general e4 positions against sicillian and ruy lopez middlegames later on as idk what to do or how white makes any progress

i have heard about chessable a lot but idk, is it worth it? are some courses free or no?

https://www.youtube.com/c/STLChessClub What’s their old vids

Search saint lousi chess club Sicilian defense or e4 openings 

Chessable is a fantastic resource. Hundreds of free courses, A lot of my filler prep comes from them. There's a lot of good stuff on there, and there's several I use for my 1.e4. 

sounds great, i actually remember making account but only for a day a year ago. i will check if its still able to use and will try to look at some free coursed to use for e4

Much of the time, sidelines are played, but I imagine the higher you go in rating, the more mainlines/more prepped sidelines you'll get. I've only got a mainline Ruy once otb and 8 times online, so that goes to say memorization isn't sufficient. 

I’m in the same boat. I have my pet opening (blackmar-diemer) and I now want to transition into the stage where I’m using real, sound openings instead of gimmicks. I like d4 so I might begin learning the Queen’s Gambit.