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"I am so tired of being below 400." ++ Blunder check before you move.
That little mental discipline alone is enough to reach 1500.
"I play good openings"
++ You do not win or lose because of the opening, but because of tactical mistakes.
"caro-kann and sicilian dragon" ++ Both are good, ditch one keep the other.
"I hate playing white" ++ Play 1 a3 and pretend you play black.
"I've tried watching other people like Gothamchess" ++ Video is passive learning. You cannot learn to swim, to ride a bicycle or ride a car from a video, you have to do it. Chess is the same.
"I need to learn how to play chess the right way." ++ Study Chess Fundamentals - Capablanca
"I want to actually win" ++ Focus on not losing first, wins will follow.
I am so tired of being below 400. It's getting so old playing to lose. I play good openings that I've studied like the caro-kann and sicilian dragon defenses and I hate playing white because I can't play any good openings as white. I don't know any good strategies. I've tried watching other people like Gothamchess play but I can't find any good move like nearly everyone that plays chess. I thought too that 800 was a good rating for chess but it's actually a bad rating from what I've heard. I need to learn how to play chess the right way. I want to actually win instead of play to lose every game.