mapping

De ja vu

It's a ladder . But this time it's for good . I'll stay here till I finish climbing the ladder this time . I promise .

I observe this love . Am I the love or am I the observer ?

I observe my arms but I am not my arms . What I truly am is the observer .

Does free will exist ?
I can do what I want .

What is it that I want to do ?
I want to eat, drink and have sex . I want to defecate . I want to fulfil my physical needs .

It's estimated that a person has about 60-70 000 thoughts every day. It's a lot to be mapping. In fact, it's a stream of nonsense you'll be advised to pass.

Ah we'll see my friend . I've done this for over a decade so I have a lot of understanding . Anyway these aren't just ordinary thoughts. These are thoughts about consciousness . Do me a favour and take a look now and again and tell me then if you believe they are worthwhile or not .

Is my thought separate from my will ?
I observe my will and my behaviour therefore freewill does not exist .

Wortwhile compared to what?

How am I here ?
I was created naturally .

Wow I love you Estren . Great question .

Well I guess if they are worthwhile to hear I suppose .

I think though that's what's happening is I'm finding peace in relation to the question of what I am . I have a theory about that and I'll share it with you .

The problem with OCD is that certain themes will go on repeat. The neurons keep packing around it in your brain. You have to let go. If you just enjoy discussing, why not try another theme?

Okay think of a dog for example . Pretty chilled out generally no ? Not having an existential crisis . God why am I here and so on .

Also thing of a muscle . It's relaxed state is the default no ?

Okay so I think originally we are at peace . Our minds throw up these agitations in the form of problems that we conceive .

We don't have to attach to these though and can just let them go .

The wonderful thing is though that when we let them go we can see the solutions that our minds come up with and actually they can be beautiful . So that's what I'll be doing here . Mapping those .

I'd like you to keep an eye on this thread Estren and let me know at some point if you see that truth is being uncovered or its just like md says and my mind is spinning in circles like a dog chasing its tail .

At the end of the day all I'm doing is not worrying , so this process is mindful even if it doesn't bring insight .

It's also really relaxing too .

And knowing I'm going to map here where people can get involved encourages me to find quiet moments where I can let go and see what life shows me .

That's healthy and relaxing and I'm grateful for the encouragement .

"In Life's 'poker' game; The optimist sees the pessimist's night; And raises him, the sunrise" ..{Robert Brault} <- 4 min. ago -I'd never heard of him!  0:

Well it's not just about discussion . I have a passion about this .

Look Estren you may be right and you may be wrong .

I'd agree that talking hasn't brought me to the truth though actually it's been fascinating to hear of ideas like annata which confirm my experience .

So this is my last shot . Being mindful and seeing what I observe .

I promise to stay here till I finish climbing the ladder of observation or give up for good .

We'll both see whether or not it was helpful for me to document here .

Md is right about you going in circles. You must break free. Let it go.

Wow beautiful sa. I like you and you're on my journey with me and I with you .

Okay Estren .

I tell you what . If I'm not enjoying the thread or mapping what I see I'll let it go . Right now I enjoy both .

Isn't the whole point of health happiness ?
I'm happy buddy .

I do love you though and I think it's a little magical that we are talking on a thread on a chess site and you're trying to help me

Anyway back to the mindfulness