meditation


Basically I sit in a comfortable place and in a comfortable position, lost in my thoughts until something happens to draw my attention back to the here and now.
Like a fart slipping out.

I've never done the full, deep, whatever meditation is supposed to be, I don't think. I think I basically just went my own way with it, combining things I know about yoga, psychology, and myself, and invented my own sort of personal psychotherapy/meditation thing.
Basically, I sit, relax, eyes open or closed, and breathe in a few times. I do breathing exercise: four seconds in, four seconds holding, four seconds out, four holding. I just focus on that for about a minute, and then I visualize all my thoughts and worries as boxes. I visualize shelves nearby. I read the label of each box, one by one, pick them up, and put them on the shelf. When they're all put away, I imagine all the emotion associated with those thoughts as dirt on my skin. I visualize washing it away, watching the dirty water flow down and away. I focus on my breathing again, my heartbeat, the touch of my hands on my knees or feet, the temperature of the air, things like that.
From there it's harder to explain, and can go in a lot of directions, depending on where I'm at, figuratively. Basically, I just focus on my own mind in the here and now, and explore it. It's very freeform.