what are we? (8 til 9 am)

Ah okay . I really didn't make any sexual advances . Still whatever he likes . It's sure not going to stand up in a court of law though .

So I have this idea in my head that the only choice I have is whether or not to solve . Basically whether or not to worry. That's it .

So I feel I just basically watch myself . Having this view gives you a sort of curiosity state . I just wonder what will happen next .

What will I say ? What will I do ? That sort of thing .

I also wonder why I'll do the things I do . What's in it for me ?

Some people have the theory that everything is about sex . That everything we do and say boils down to our need to have sex .

That's sounds a bit minimalistic even for me !

I suppose that it's a little odd for me to have the experience that the only real choice I have is whether or not to solve .

I had another choice last night that I experienced . The choice whether or not to record what I see when I observe in relation to what I am .

But immediately afterwards I experienced the choice whether or not to solve .

I suppose that the truth is whatever choices occur in our lives they are always accompanied by the choice whether or not to dwell on them .

We can dwell on the choices , analyse them , or act instinctively .

I wonder if whether or not we dwell on things, analyse them, causes us to behave differently .

I suspect not . After all worry doesn't bring us new information.

What's the use of worrying?
It never was worthwhile .

Anyway I never worry and I don't want anyone that contributes here to worry either . So just relax and be yourself .

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Md you talk of reporting me for harassment . That's a little rich . You're constantly abusive to me and I never mind then you say I'm harassing you.

I'm not sure I'll ever understand you but I genuinely hope that you find happiness in your life .

Sa 260. For me to comment on my sexuality here would be to give it some importance and I'm not prepared to do that . That suggests that our gender or sexual preferences are important and I know that's not true . What matters is we care . We are worthwhile . I'm glad you're easy going about sexuality . I am too. A guy at work said to me the other day you're so far in the closet you're in narnia which I found to be fabulous . I said give me an hour in a hotel room with your partner and I'll show you how gay I am !

Anyway moving on .
What is this awareness ?

You have to be yourself right ?

I mean it's no use trying to be someone you're not . Better to relax and be who you are .

That's the healthy state . If you can't be accepted too bad but how can you enjoy anyone if you aren't relaxing and just being you ?

What is this awareness ?
Awareness is the universe observing itself .

The answer to what are we is that we are nothing .

Have I found my answer ?
I know that experience is the observer and the observed in the present moment continually . I know that consciousness is being aware of things happening . I know that awareness is the universe observing itself .

I don't know what love is .

What is love ?

tomtrytostay wrote:

The answer to what are we is that we are nothing .

Brilliant

I have been enlightened.

Rather early to be on the sauce tom ?

Thank you Md!

By the way I think you'll find that some of the great meditators reached the same conclusion .

I was drinking wine last night and feel like a glass now . You must be psychic !

This whole love thing is fascinating anyway . Why do we need love ?

I'm not sure we do really . I think perhaps what we need is people and love just means that the people will stay with us .

tomtrytostay wrote:

By the way I think you'll find that some of the great meditators reached the same conclusion .

Name one tom

Or forever hold your tongue.

But as usual you will runaway, jump to 50 other things and think how clever you were ignoring the question, smug in your little lies.

tomtrytostay wrote:

Sa 260. For me to comment on my sexuality here would be to give it some importance and I'm not prepared to do that . That suggests that our gender or sexual preferences are important and I know that's not true . What matters is we care . We are worthwhile . I'm glad you're easy going about sexuality . I am too. A guy at work said to me the other day you're so far in the closet you're in narnia which I found to be fabulous . I said give me an hour in a hotel room with your partner and I'll show you how gay I am !

Your refusal to accept who you are much less discuss the topic results in repression, lying , confusion, all sorts of unwanted behavior. Your assertation that a persons sexuality has no meaning, is of no importance is just another way of running away from personal issues.

Your advanced stage of OCD is a result. It's the minds way of distracting itself from insecurities and doubts. A life of denial must be extremely taxing on the mind and body.