I was going to play white, it was aborted, got black. A bit disappointed and maybe affecting my game. Lost. Lost rematch as white. New game. Black again. Lost. Lost rematch. New game. Lost game and rematch. Then got my fourth new opponent in a row after I was supposed to play white. Given black again. I aborted the game.
Remember back in school when they tried to explain random chance and probabilitty?
Remember how they showed you that a coin has a 50/50 chance of landing on either side but doesn't actually land heads, tails, heads, tails, etc.? Why is that?
There may be times when you get a streak of white or black but in the long run, it balances whites and blacks pretty well.
You have played 10,722 bullet games.
You have played 5,386 bullet games as white.
You have played 5, 336 games as black.
I was going to play white, it was aborted, got black. A bit disappointed and maybe affecting my game. Lost. Lost rematch as white. New game. Black again. Lost. Lost rematch. New game. Lost game and rematch. Then got my fourth new opponent in a row after I was supposed to play white. Given black again. I aborted the game.