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Anyway I thank you for your contribution and I'll move on.

Ed I don't know why you think I'm happier. I wonder what made you think that.
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Kay I don't want to fight. But okay you do your humour thing. Get appropriation. That's fine. I enjoy you too.

Just don't expect me to take you seriously. I can't have a conversation with you. You're hiding your heart.

If you'd ever like to talk I'm right here.
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Anyway. So I'm on the bus returning home. I have a guitar player with a bandana sitting opposite me. He looks pretty cool. He's talking about trying out for bands.
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I have been given a bottle of Buck's Fizz off my boss. I figure that's a great start for Christmas morning. Don't you think so too?
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Now a Pharrell Williams lookalike is sitting next to the bandana player.
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There's so little space on this bus. The big guitar isn't helping.

I think guitar players are cool. I wish I could do that. And sing and dance too. Oh and cook.

I guess we all wish we had skills.
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Why do you keep bringing NIk up?  man...this is your thread so it can be all about you.  what i'm saying is, this is your journal.  i'm understanding it.    you can express all you want...your thread.  I just understand it now.  A JOURNAL.   makes you understandeable now in my book.  I get it.

and as a journal, no one really sees it, however, online, everybody can, so the opinions are given.   You've made up your mind on almost verything in your life, but will accept any ones opinion;because it's your journal.   wow. 

making comments about what I hear?  i'm reading you Tom.  and it's a diary.   question is, do I want to peak in and read your journal from time to time or keep you to your privacy like a journal is.

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Oh hi there. Let me just ask.... The guitar player is asking how far from whitely bay he is. I like his gentle southern accent. Is that okay with you he's saying. Sorry about that.

Maybe musicians are gentle people. He's reading a book and I'm trying to see what. Maybe philosophy.
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That's an interesting post Mexi. Thank you.
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I'm sorry. I get paranoid and defensive. It can be a bit robust here and you get in a fighting stance sometimes when there is no need. I accept you are your own man.
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Wow you are funny. That really made me laugh. I wonder what you are like. I think basically a nice person. But hot tempered! Why don't you burn in hell Tom?! Oh okay Kay.
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Mexi I'll talk about what you've said.

I would love to see you here along with everyone else on this site.

I love people and love seeing who they are.
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Well at work I'm talkative. I initiate conversations. Sometimes I'm involved in the conversation other times not. I see this thread as that sort of thing. I chat about what's interesting me and enjoy when people join in.

That's the first thing.
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Secondly I've had a lot of therapy and I suppose I unload here like I did there. And I can work out here what's bothering me. Think aloud. Maybe get a helpful idea or a little support too.
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Thirdly I've observed my mind for over ten years and now I'm at the point I accept that I'm a part of the universe and jog separate from it.

I'm interested to hear what the universe will say. I have a curiosity about what I'll say. How I'll think.
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Lastly I just enjoy talking and thinking about things and I guess I hope to encounter like minded people here.
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paranoid and defensive?  

you're going to have to learn to accept what is being thrown at you, because not everyone thinks at all like you.   You will get called out.  I will get called out.  We all get called out.   we can have normal convo, but you get paranoid and defensive.  

How can you even express yourself?   ahhh...because this is your journal.  You feel safe writing down your thoughts.     but....we, your voices, creep in.  You try to bat the bad ones away by getting defensive and throwing it (or trying to throw it back) in our face, but it doesn't work because you get upset.  

I don't believe I am any where near a fighting stance. i'm sitting down for cripes sake.  

However, I don't want to provoke...that's not good.   Getting out of this groundhogs day thread.     "Relax and have a Taco".  

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For a long time here I was interested in learning the meaning of life but I feel I understand now.

I understand that everything is just nature. That evolution is the answer.

I wonder about this and that but I don't expect I'm here any longer to find out what I am.

In fact I don't make philosophical threads anymore.

Or scientific either.
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I'll catch up Mexi I've got to go. Nice to see you and thanks for the posts
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TOM-TOM as Aunty Primrose has advised you in one of your many threads why not fly out to South Africa and join her and Louis "Lunchbox" at the Skinny Dipping Fest at  Mangrove Beach?Would do you a power of good methinks.The assembled company no doubt all in the buff would sit around you hanging onto every word you uttered.Sunshine would warm your psyche.Perhaps kaynight would like to travel with you for the experience.I think you said you have Aunty Primroses cellphone number-go on call herCool