relax and be yourself

Peste I think you are confusing calmness with being relaxed. Being relaxed means letting it out. So if you want to vent fxcking do it. Have your say.

No you don't. It was not an idea of mine, in the first place, and surely not as something permanent.

I wanted to say something about this site. God knows I'm not a perfect person. Believe me. I'm inappropriate and inadvertently offensive.

It strikes me though there is a lot of attention here to a person's sexuality.

I just want to say get over it. It's 2016. So what if you're straight or gay? What difference does it make? Get a grip guys.

Well get over it then, I will.

I understand peste. You're talking about life not being the way you want it to be. That's interesting to me . We are talking about pain now.

I get that too. When I'm at work I see people loving and enjoying each other. Like its Christmas morning and presents are being given out but I'm not included.

I find though if I don't worry then I relax. I suppose the truth is my friend that we all have different circumstances and there is just nothing can be done about that .

It's about accepting the way things are and not beating yourself up.

But you know sometimes things get better in ways you couldn't imagine .

Guys don't you find things always brighten eventually?

Why worry? There will be sunshine after pain. There will be laughter after rain. These things have always been the same . So why worry now?

My friend things will get better .

Yeah it's this md thing . Md if you are listening maybe this Anna account is you and maybe it isn't. Either way you're welcome. I have no concern about a person's sexuality or gender. It just doesn't matter . That's why I refuse to declare my sexuality and I always will .

Hey peste nice to meet you . It's lovely to actually talk to someone on my thread. I think yesterday it was almost all me .

Still Tom isn't a very good topic.

Let's all relax instead and just see what happens.

Maybe we'll have sex!

Excuse me. Small cough.

I wonder if how we are to judge life, our life, is to think about beauty.

I find that it's beauty that makes my life worthwhile. I think of the beauty in people around me specifically.

It is lovely though to visit beautiful buildings, lovely parks, lovely countryside.

It's lovely to have a fine glass of champagne. A fabulous steak.

They say the best things in life are free and it's true that love is priceless . It's wonderful though to enjoy the finer things in life .

Saying that I would rather enjoy a basic drink of wine with someone I love than the finest of champagne on my own.

Company is wonderful.

I like this topic . It sums up how I relate. I hope I can stay here. I'm tired of moving around .

I find that it's not about how should I judge my life , more about how I do .

I say right I've had this much beauty , that makes this worthwhile for me.

It's all about beauty whether or not we perceive life to be worthwhile in my experience.

Worth and meaning aren't the same .

Life has no true meaning to me but it does have worth .

Strange but true .

It seems I'm assimilating my new view which is evolutionary based with my experience of life . Coming to terms with how I feel and how I think .

Sometimes I think that so long as I run a thread I'll forever wonder. I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing really .

I guess one way to judge it would be to say do I think I'm becoming more or less sane as a result of my thread . I would say I have times I get agitated but generally my views are becoming more coherent and I'm feeling more relaxed .

I think so long as I don't worry I'll be okay .

I gave some thought to this idea that my life is worthwhile this morning.

I see that as an illusion. There is no I. Not really. Just nature evolving.

I'm thinking about intelligence too.

Like life is getting so smart right? Perhaps life could get so smart that it could understand that it isn't real. Not in the way it thinks it is. But then that's precisely what Darwin and Einstein and hawking realised . They saw that all that's real is nature .

I'm wondering does that change anything. Life knowing what it is. Can anything be done as a result of that?

I suppose nature can then act with design rather than blind and we've seen that with genetic engineering.

At least for the religious guys there is a purpose.

I'm left feeling what's to be gained really, what's to achieve?