I am willing to study 5 hours a day if it means getting ready. I recently had an over the board FIDE tournament, my first, and i played an 1800 elo FIDE and i almost drew him, but the preassure was too much for me to handle and i blundered a rook after 64 moves played with 94% accuracy and i resigned.
Since then my love for chess grew and i want to get to an NM title but i have been stuch at 800 elo for weeks. I almost broke through but i suddenly fell to 750 and now im back up at 820. I've started some chessable courses (free) about the caro kann and the scothch gambit, i started doing puzzles more seriously and when i didnt have time for rapid, instead of not playing any games that day i started playing blitz.
This all happened in the last 7 days. I just need some tips that can help me break through or even just help me a tiny bit like a habit. Thank you for taking the time to read my rant even if you dont have anything to say.